.Saturday, 31 August 2013 ♫ 10:55 ♫
Omg okay so today was STGCC. Nothing much happened. Talked with Chun Hwee a bit. Still the same guy LOL. Whole time I was distracted by my phone though >.> I'm sorry but Geof. AHHH.Ok so Andrew had to leave at 3 with Chun Hwee. They go off to Rasapura to eat (Andrew gave me a Dora plushie...) I went back to hunt for Geoffffff. So yeah. We decided to eat (cos he was hungry) so I told him to go Dhoby to eat if he wants fast food. So we goes to Plaza Sing to eat. He asked what I wanted to eat, but I couldn't eat cos I had no money. He got food and kinda forced me to eat some of his fries T_T Sigh I feel so fat. Anyway. Then we went home on the train together. And like lotsa shit we talked about and stuff we did (I swear, we're like 10 year olds). We got seats. I gave him the other phone strap (the brown one). We were laughing cos he couldn't put it on his phone anywhere. It was so nice to see his smile live and up close like that, all the more reason because I was the one who made him smile. I swear my heart just skipped not only one, but one thousand beats. It was like I was in heaven!
Then bam, Woodlands. Oh god. So I hugged him goodbye. I almost kissed his cheek but I. I. I. AHHHH. CANNOT. So I just bumped my head on his cheek instead OTL. He was liek watwat. And I'm liek ahh nothing, just too shy. So I went off. And I couldn't stop smiling. God help me. I'm literally crying tears of joy right now. I can't stop smiling. Can't stop being happy. Time spent with him was just. Awesome. I wish I could be with him everyday. Sigh but now it's the holidays and I need to come up with excuses to go out with him :\ I'll find a way. I hope. Sigh. I really just wanna be held in his arms until day darkens to night. I want to be able to just breathe in his scent instead of oxygen. I just need to be able to hold his fingers and intertwine them with mine. I want to be mesmerized just by looking at his eyes gaze back at mine. I want to matter to him just like he does to me.
Sigh but I know it'll never happen. I thought it did when I fell for CJ but it never really did, he never felt the same for me. I don't want to go through the same thing again... I guess I'll just hold it back. In case he pretends to like me back out of pity just like CJ did. This is enough for me to be happy and not cut for a long long time. Dear God, please don't take this memory away from me.
-Syaikhah
Bleh I drew him
