Enchanted - Taylor Swift

Please don't be in love with someone else. Please don't have somebody waiting on you.

Hi. So I'm wondering if you know I like you. I was literally starstruck when I saw you. They call it love at first sight, I call it enchanted. Cos whenever our eyes meet, I feel sparks fly and my heart melt. I literally feel crushed and anxious when we're close. I hoped you couldn't see how nervous I was, but at the same time, I secretly wished you did. 

When you smile, I see you radiate from the crowd, you simply look angelic. You touch me slightly, brush against my arm, or even hold my hand; I gasp slightly and have a mini heart attack. Contact feels like static but in a way, it wasn't painfully shocking. It was an electric shock that woke me up to a world of happiness and fantasy. With each step you take, I feel your radiating energy in them. 

As you look into my eyes searching for a reaction, I shy away yet look back. They are like crystals staring at me deeply, holding my gaze and never letting it go. I searched and found hope in your big bright eyes, yet it was dark. You're still a mystery to me and I wonder what you are and could ever be. Then we hug, and I tried my best to feel everything about you: your hair, your chest, your shoulders, your arms. I was more captivated than relaxed. Your scent filled my nostrils with bliss as your hand ran through my hair. We stayed like this for a moment, a moment that proved to be my moment for life. 

Then I realised and remembered, as I saw the girl in pink behind you. 

She was beautiful and simply captivating. Her baby pink hair flowed with the wind, each strand glistening in the sunlight. Her eyes full of innocence and love, bubbly and cheery. She stared at you with those eyes, she stared at you lovingly. She opened her perfect lips to call for you, and waved her hand frantically, almost in a cute manner. She was like a little girl, wanting you back. She was irresistible in every men's eyes. She was irresistible to you. She was simply beautiful... And she came before me.

I tried to hug you tighter, not letting you leave. No..I didn't want this moment to end. I wanted you to stay with me. I didn't want you to leave just like he did. I felt myself crushing you in my arms. I felt you growing weak. I let go a little, giving you room to breathe. You tricked me. You fooled me. I was stupid. You were the liar.

You almost dashed for her. You held her in your arms and carried her. You were happier, your smile was wider. Your eyes shined brighter than the crystals I once saw. I couldn't hold it in anymore. As you smiled happily with her, I cried. I dropped down on my knees, and covered my face in my hands. I was ashamed. I was upset. But you didn't see me anymore. You only could see her. The perfect girl in pink.

Reality opened up to me. I see myself in the mirror. Jet black hair covering half of my features. Eyes red from tears. Dried blood on my hands. Runny mascara. Sharp fangs hiding away. I was a monster compared to her. He just pitied me as any other person would, as he would. In the end, I was alone again. Just me and my reflection. I destroy her, the mirror shattered; Just like my whole world. 

I could only weep and wallow in sorrow as I realise that I can never be the reason behind that beautiful smile you have. I can only be the stepping stone for your destination. And I can only be destroyed and stepped on in order to be noticed. He was just like everyone else, and I was still the same girl getting hurt over and over. 

I admit. I do miss him. I do love him. But it's time that I forget about him. All I could do is just pick up the broken pieces of the mirror and fit it together again. There's bound to be missing pieces and cracks. My reflection would be distorted. But that was the price I paid for trying to be loved.

"Give me love," I begged, and all I got was pain. Maybe it was because I was a nightmare to everyone. And I can never be the girl in pink. I'll always be the girl in black. And I'll always try to chase after the men in pure white hoping to get them to like me. But you know, I realise it'll never happen. Because I was just the night where they shine upon as the moon, and they'll only fall for the stars. 

I knew I was bringing in trouble when I saw him, when I met him, when I approached him. I knew I'd love him, I knew I'd go crazy for him. And most of all, I knew he would break my heart one day. I just never thought it'd be that early. So I'll be putting my guard up from now on. Whatever it is, I'm just another replacement to you anyway. I might as well act like one already.

Maybe this is wishful thinking. Probably mindless dreaming. But if we got a chance to love each other, I promise I'll love you right. I promise the I won't be a mistake. But if you still don't wish to, I won't force you to. I'll still love you. I love you. 

-Alyce