.Thursday, 2 January 2014 ♫ 13:26 ♫
EDIT: She is alive and well now :) She was sent to the hospital and now she's recovering at home
I'd like to dedicate this post to @ eating__probs on Twitter. May God find her peace.
On 2nd January, she decided to take her own life through the means of exsanguination (cutting her wrists). She intentionally did it deep and soon, her clear bath water became stained with her own blood. She said her final goodbyes on Twitter, and soon enough, we never heard from her again. I'm not sure if she was just in hospital and unable to go online, or if she really is gone. But whatever the case, I hope she's feeling better and I hope she finds peace. I don't like to believe in the after-life, but in this case, I wish there was one where she can truly be happy.
It's true that I myself have been considering this method of suicide. But nothing is more painful than seeing someone else do it, and successfully too. It hurts me to see someone else trying to escape this world in her own painful manner. It hurts me to see someone die. It pains me. It agonizes me. I'm truly sorry for what has happened to anyone who has felt this way. I'm so sorry the world isn't kind. I myself wish the world could be a better place, but alas, it never will be.
Shoutout to people who need someone desperately right now to tell them "Stay alive, I need you." Well right now, I want you to know, that I need you. No matter what. I have an ask.fm box on the side, please just talk to me if you want it anonymously. Heck, I have a twitter @ Bleach565. You can talk to me there too. Heck, I have a kik: riinko. Please, don't kill yourself yet. Let me be that friend. Let me be the one person you stay alive for. We'll be in different countries most likely. But whatever, let nothing be your boundaries. I have a skype, I have steam, I have facebook. I have so many platforms you can talk to me with. Please let me be the one to stop you from pulling the trigger.. or picking up the blade.. or jumping off a building. Please allow me to save you from your hell and demons.
No matter how irritating, or fucked up a person is, you're still a person. And I will love you all the same. I will love you regardless of your race, religion, gender, sexual orientation, opinions, mindset, past and looks. Fuck, even better if you think you're unattractive. Chances are, I'm as unattractive as you think you are.
I cannot make everyone happy, I cannot save everyone from death. But what I can do, is try. And that's what I'll do: to try and save whatever is left of your life. So please, hold on tight and never lose hope. Because I'm still alive too. And it's only for all of you.
-Rinko
